Starting afresh once more. A new chapter of my life. As the word of God says, the end of a matter is always better than the beggining. So moving on as always I'll trust in Him. Ironically as I've injured my ligament it really puts me into perspective. Just like how Jacob's hip was wrenched out due to the fact he was wrestling with God. He walked with a limp and leaned on God for the rest of his life. I will also lean on God even more.

Well, for now. This is gonna be a place where I put down my struggles and breakthroughs. Hopefully this will be a place where I can see myself growing.

2/3/2010
fell down and tore my ligament. Thought it was a sprain
3/3/2010
MO said I tore my ligament. 2 days MC
5/3/2010
1 more day of MC and was told that i'll most prob OOC.
(was still positive and believed that I'd recover by 2 weeks)

7/3/2010
was really down on spirits as I realised that it's not really possible for me to do anything at all. Regrets filled my heart. The pain of actually being pitied was coming down hard on me. In addition the inability to do anything for myself and contribute to others. That sucked big time. As well as the fact that I who was once at the top can no longer be a the top. Maybe it was pride. Maybe it is vulnerability. I don't really care what I know is that this sucked.
8/3/2010
specialist appointment. told of operation on 15 april. physiotheraphy session, it was really painful.
9/3/2010
tried swimming and doing activities to raise my spirits. But to no avail I became fed up with myself and my plight. Mum was really negative to the point of annoyance. Really want to get back to my normal state. Not going to give up without a fight.
10/3/2010
Decided that I'm not going to give up on myself. That I can always fight for myself, to recover and gain back my strength. Just like samson lost his hair and strength. I can alway get them back. If God is for me who then can be against me. Just gonna do my best and let God do the rest and have faith in Him. He directs the paths of the righteous.