Sometimes things don't really matter anymore. It's as though things don't matter anymore. People that was close are not. Perhaps this is a hopelessness due to the perfectionist character in me.

Things change and people too. For now, I'm just too tired to do anything for anyone or anything. Rather I don't want to do anything anymore. Will God come through this time around. Why am I getting softer on the inside where things matter and hurt so much.

I'm just too tired. Too tired of people. Too tired of things. Too tired of always striving always doing my best. Perhaps it's sometimes better to be weak, dumb and without the drive to succeed. I am so so tired.