In this year there are many things that have happened to me. Many things were too hard for me to bear on my own. Many things allowed me to know myself even more. I felt overwhelmed by the happenings and the events of this entire year. The doors that were opened to me somehow seems to bring me joy and burdens at the same time. It gave me unnecessary stress about work, losing the passion I once had for certain things.

I've injured my leg which caused me physical, mental, emotional and possibly spiritual pain. If I didn't injure my leg alot of bad things wouldn't have happened.

And so, with all these thought in my mind I went for my Genting trip with Basil, Ching Ee and Pei Yi.

Throughout this entire trip I felt the grace that God has placed in my life. I know for sure, if it's based on my own strengths and abilities I wouldn't have made it this far with everything on my mind. I thank God, for strength, for wonderful friends, for timely breaks and finacial blessings.

Let's start with the beginning of the trip. We booked for an economy class coach, we got a PREMIUM CLASS COACH complete with movies and games to entertain us. My mum gave me extra like 100RM for no apparent reason. Basil changed an extra 150 SGD for me. Talk about finacial blessing for a timely break!

During this entire trip I felt I've grown closer to Pei Yi. Someone whom I never thought I could and would feel close to. I also thank God for Basil my best friend and Ching Ee one of my closest friend. We had a lot of fun despite the screw ups in our plans on day 1 and 2.

As the trip came to an end I started to reflect on this entire year. I thank God, really for his grace and mercy. I thank God, for giving me wonderful friends; friends who stick with me through thick and thin, friends who despite my weakness and flaws constantly cheering me up, friends who bothers to see through and get through the layers to know who I really am. I thank God that despite my pride He didn't let me fall, He still gave me a reason to hold on, a reason to stay, a reason to keep on fighting this fight of faith.

That everytime things seems too bad for me to handle, He allows certain breaks in between for me to rest and break away and off from all my issues.

And that, despite all these happenings, I have still been blessed with good opportunities for my future, finacial blessings and wonderful friends.

True enough that bad things have happen. But, bad things do happen to good people. What matters is that we make the bad things become an asset to us in the future.

God is good!

This is my favourite picture from the genting trip!

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm handin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm handing on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

Watched hello stranger today PRETTY AWESOME SHIT!

But at the same time stiring the same emotions in me that I once tried to held back.

Well, this is part of the movie if I didn't remember wrongly.

"she once told me that this feelings could be just imagined. but if it is so I don't think that it will last this long."

and this is what the male lead said when the girl asked how could he love her when he don't even know her name.

" True, I don't know you. But I did fall for a girl who can drink a litre of pepsi, who always falls asleep on my motorbike, who does a crazy back flip when she's drunk. Is that girl you?"

well, and for me. I guess it is so.

Something that I want to just type out.

You don't have to try to be pretty or act pretty. Cos to me you're plenty pretty.

I don't need a girl who is drop dead gorgeous. I don't need one who knows and understand everything I do. I don't need one who is super hot.

In fact a the time I just want you.

I may be unable to voice things out. BUT! I feel that I can take on the entire world so long you are by my side with me.