Ok this is a random post after being away from blogging for soooooo lloooooonnnnnnggggggg!

I feel that it is easier on me. If I was hurt rather than me hurting others.

Cos, in a way I can deal with myself. I can change the situation. But wheras the other way around I have no control.

So, that's that.


There are times because of this mindset I feel like why do I have to live a tamed down life. Especially when I know more character is more like a predator. Silent but uncontrollable. I'm born wild, I love nature, I enjoy working and sweating it out for what I believe is mine, I know and I believe that if left in the wild, I'll survive perfectly fine.

In real life, I had to tame myself down. Be hyper around people. Be less serious and firm. I had to just accept the fact that sometimes I just have to submit.

And there came this thought, if I did not live my life as such how would I have lived my life.
I guess, I would be having fun partying, going insane in sports, indulging in all the wrong things in the world. A moment of regret almost came over me. Till I recognise the source of all these from the carnal nature and of the devil.

So tonight, THIS is my prayer and cry from my heart.

No more running wild, I'm YOURS for LIFE.
YOU got me here, YOU GOT ME.

So here's to my Father, my God.